Posts from — January 2008

I am at a crossroad. Its funny how all things fall onto your lap at the same time.

Love, work, self.

I may (or may not) have a new job. Which my instinct tells me to go towards. But I am not sure. So I will just keep the door open and let the opportunity fly in if its meant for me.

They tell me, its like that when you vow for kosenrufu. You will go thru a labyrinth, finding your way, finally finding yourself and happiness. Then sharing joy. I think I wiill SHOULD start with by making friends with my young women.

There must be some reason why our paths crosses. Why we are webbed into this puzzle of life. Why at this moment, I am here, you are here and you are in my district. So I must make friends first. Get to know. Then flow along life together…

Just another Saturday night where I sat here in my favourite corner browsing around the net. I recalled of the flickr pages of my dear friend, Pei Sze. Looking at them makes me miss her so much. I wish she is still there to pick up my call when I call. To listen. To chat. To share. Or just to laugh at our silly jokes.

I still remember how her skin felt, her smell and her small wrist which I could circle my fingers around.

Looking at her pictures not only reminds me of her exuberant smile, but also reminds me of the fragility of life and never when we know is the last of our moments so treasure our lives, treasure every moment. Looking at her pictures, filled with so much love she shared with her husband. It is priceless eventhough it was brief. Some of us who lives on still ain’t there yet.

Miss you still.

Now that I started reading A LOT again, I make a mental note to read slower. So that I can absorb better and not just skimming thru things like I always do. And maybe improve my english a little more.

I would also like to eat slower. I tend to gobble up my food in a whisk. Bad habits. So un-sophisticated and bad for my intestines. I read somewhere that we will also eat lesser if we eat slower.

I guess the only thing to do more and not less, is drinking

And chanting, of course…!

I completed my read in 8 hours.

Record breaking!

The story is so captivating that I couldn’t put the book down. Yes, it was one of those Saturdays. And I weeped shamelessly while reading.

It is really heart wrenching and the story is so well written. I could feel every pain, shame, love, loyalty, sacrifies and significance in each and every word.

The story goes about a boy who grew up running away from a terrible secret, from people he loves. Returning years later, only to understand everything about his life and have a final chance to make things right.

Its one of the books selected for reading in the book club I joined here. Well, many book club meetings after (where I was only at the very first one!), I am trying now to catch up on the readings.

Besides, I’ve just returned from New York. So I took the opportunity when I was there to grab many many books because 1. English Books everywhere 2. Weak USD (Hehehe)

But I just realised Amazon is a better bargain. Damn!

I hit the big 3 this year. I still feel like the young girl I knew. Carefree. Happy. Timeless. (And I want to keep feeling that way!)

But life keeps moving forward. Time keep ticking.
How I wish I can stall time. Or time trave, at least.

Hehe. Actually, I am reading  this book – The Time Traveller’s Wife. Half way through. Its very good. It keeps me hooked. I take the book everywhere. I can’t put it down but I have to! Because I have to go to work to pay my bills. I have to do grocery to fill my tummy. I have to iron (urgh!) to cloth myself. I have to be adult. Sigh.