Cure for a bad day :

3 Lychee Martini @ Harry’s Crazy Hour
Return Ride @ MX5
Dinner @ Crystal Jade
Phonecall @ Ma mobile
Books @ Borders
A good long HOT shower

Recently, I had a very deep conversation with my best buds. It kept me thinking for many nights. It drained me out quite a bit.

Nevertheless, it was worthwhile.

Is it the matter of the beginning or the journey towards the ending?
Is there a beginning or ending at all?

Death. It is inevitable to all. As much as we would like to be in denial, to hope for eternal mortality, to not think about it – someday we will perish.

It could be tomorrow for me. Or in 5 years. Or in 10 years. Or perhaps when I am 80 years old.

The journey of life for everyone is different. We encounter different obstacles – literally, rivers to cross, mountains to climb, ocean to sail – at all different points in our lives.

At certain point, we may meet the most impossible mountain to climb. Not knowing if we can survive the climb. We slog on, we climb on – hoping to survive the climb.

What if at the other side of the mountain is a desert? One will certainly suffer from exhaustion and dehydration.

In this case, do we define the other side of the mountain the beginning of life? Or ending?

Perhaps – instead draggin our feet thru the darkness, feeling the pain, sadness, despair… We could re-channel our energies?

As we climb the magnimous mountain – we could pick some flowers along the way, enjoy the passing breeze, lose our breath to the spectacular view, sing some songs aloud, laugh a million laughters, dance with our friends, do a jiggy when no ones lookin…???

That is living, isn’t it.

Because who knows what lies for us tomorrow.

Mood : Pensive
It was disspointment-turned-anger-turned-pensive mood.

I guess I am not a person who stays angry for long. Quick tempered, I call it. But being a scorpio, I remember

There was an expectation set and when the expectation was not met, dissapointment fills up the gap. Anyway, for today’s dissapointment, the expectation = REWARD.

Well, what pisses me off is that I have to justify for my own reward! Which is silly la – in my view because I am hired for a purpose so I should spend my time fulfilling that purpose. Not justifying reward for purpose I fulfilled last year.

My working principles : I work with strong commitment and utmost dedication to fulfil and deliver my purpose – be indispensable! (I work and live to that!). And I trust completely that the reciprocal effect should come naturally – REWARDS!

Law of cause and effect!

Well, well, could it be of my naiveness? It doesn’t seems to work this way in the corporate world unfortunately.

But I want to believe that the working way of life is the same as for personal, corporate, society etc. Meaning law of cause and effect is invariable, even in this big bad world.

I am torn now. Admist the dissapointment, a part of me refused to keep functioning – other part reminded me to be objective.

So, I thought I’ll take a break now and write my thoughts. Maybe someone out there can give me some enlightening encouragement???